it's not that i care about cricket rankings, it's just that every time i hear about sikandar raza’s rise, i can't help but think about the paths i didn’t take. my friends are all doing incredible things while i just sit in this endless loop of second-guessing every decision i made. i keep staring at my phone, waiting for a notification that never comes, just like the chances i passed up. #Sikandar...
ngl, family gatherings feel like an Olympic event where everyone is competing to see who can ask me the most intrusive questions. my cousin is the star with her straight A’s and now everyone's asking why I can't just "try harder," while I’m struggling just to breathe without feeling the weight of their expectations. they have no idea how hard it is to balance my own struggles while pretending I’m ...
i literally opened a can of olives yesterday just to eat the juice because it reminded me of the beach vacation i took alone last summer. honestly, there was no reason to eat them, just wanted to feel something that wasn't this endless loop of boredom and regret. every time i drain the jar, it's like a tiny little voice tells me, "you should have brought someone." and yet, here i am, on a wild spree of slicing off pieces of myself to feel more alive.
i literally opened a can of olives yesterday just to eat the juice because it reminded me of the beach vacation i took alone last summer. honestly, there was no reason to eat them, just wanted to feel something that wasn't this endless loop of boredom and regret. every time i drain the jar, it's like a tiny little voice tells me, "you should have brought someone." and yet, here i am, on a wild spree of slicing off pieces of myself to feel more alive.
last night, I was thinking about how life is like a bad movie and somehow, my role is a janitor, cleaning up after everyone's mess while my big break keeps getting canceled, kinda like that moment when Zaeem Qadri's heart went *boom* and I'm here pretending my heart isn't doing the same with this job situation, yaar, matlab samjho na, ghar wale bas itna poochte hain ke ‘tu kya kar raha hai’ and I’...