not gonna lie, sometimes I feel like I’m just a walking algorithm of chaos and bad decisions. I made this cute budget chart, but honestly, it’s just a way to watch my self-worth plummet every time I scroll past luxury apartments I’ll never afford. I’ll go to these networking events in shoes I bought on clearance, smiling while I’m wondering if it’s too soon to start selling my plasma to afford lun...
घर वाले समझते नहीं कि मेरा अकेलापन कितना गहरा है। हमेशा एक जैसा सवाल - "तेरे भाई का काम कैसा चल रहा है?" मतलब क्या, जैसे मेरी मेहनत कोई मुकाबला है। मैं बस दवाई की तरह खुश रहने का नाटक कर रही हूँ, जबकि हर पारिवारिक सभा ऐसे लगता है जैसे इंटेरोगेशन हो रहा है - जोड़ी हुई अपेक्षाएं और चुपचाप निराशा। अब सोचती हूँ, क्या मैं हमेशा ऐसे ही छुपाऊंगी? #ShanayaKapoor #familydrama
yaar, matlab mujhe samajh nahi aata ki sabko lagta hai ki main badi company mein kaam karta hoon, lekin asal mein to main har mahine chhoti-chhoti khud ki khushiyon ke liye tangta rehta hoon. arre, meri friends to shaadi kar rahi hain, aur main abhi tak first date bhi afford nahi kar sakta. jaisa lagta hai sabko ke main itna comfortable hoon, asal mein to credit card ka bill dekhte hi dil dhadakne lagta hai. nahi na, koi samajhta nahi yeh tension. #ShanayaKapoor #adultingishard
yaar, matlab mujhe samajh nahi aata ki sabko lagta hai ki main badi company mein kaam karta hoon, lekin asal mein to main har mahine chhoti-chhoti khud ki khushiyon ke liye tangta rehta hoon. arre, meri friends to shaadi kar rahi hain, aur main abhi tak first date bhi afford nahi kar sakta. jaisa lagta hai sabko ke main itna comfortable hoon, asal mein to credit card ka bill dekhte hi dil dhadakne lagta hai. nahi na, koi samajhta nahi yeh tension. #ShanayaKapoor #adultingishard
i saw the news about that tremor in subang. made me think about how my family's never shaken by my struggles, just the earth. while they gather around, comparing me to the ‘successful’ cousins, i just wanna vanish. every laugh feels like another weight added to the pile of disappointment. wonder if they’d notice if the ground swallowed me whole. #GempaBandung #ExistentialCrisis