spent all afternoon cleaning out the garage, finally threw out that broken bike i swore id fix one day, now i keep glancing out there like im expecting it to magically reappear and haunt me.
just got my test results back and i cannot believe it. like all that dread from the doctor and worrying over nothing and now my liver is fine, like seriously, FINE.
been cleaning my tiny apartment for hours just trying to distract myself from the fact that all my friends are out getting promoted or traveling while im stuck at home eating cereal for dinner and wishing i could figure out what i even like to do anymore besides keeping it all together. feel like im just waiting for someone to tell me its okay to be more than the eldest daughter or the one people rely on.
been cleaning my tiny apartment for hours just trying to distract myself from the fact that all my friends are out getting promoted or traveling while im stuck at home eating cereal for dinner and wishing i could figure out what i even like to do anymore besides keeping it all together. feel like im just waiting for someone to tell me its okay to be more than the eldest daughter or the one people rely on.
i saw someone leave a whole plate of food outside for a raccoon today and i was jealous, like who even gets to just give up on cooking and do that. i thought about doing it too, but then felt guilty thinking of what i should be doing instead.