… so I thought I was just giving it a go, right? You know, just trying to stay on top of things while hiding that my only real purchase lately is discount coffee from that tiny shop with questionable hygiene. And it hit me—what am I doing? Pretending I don’t stay awake at night, counting the pennies in my jar, wondering how long I can avoid looking at the numbers I owe. You’d think after a week of...
honestly, i found myself in this full-on chaotic beef with a stranger over a fan account, and it was over the most ridiculous thing, like who wore a hat better in an old video. we were practically exchanging family secrets, while my actual relatives were fighting over the last slice of pizza at a birthday party. it all felt so absurd, like my heart was manifesting love for an imagined rivalry. tur...
not gonna lie, I looked in the mirror the other day and realized the person staring back was built on my parents' dreams, not my own. I mean, I never even liked jazz, yet here I am – planning a life filled with berets and brunches, just to avoid disappointing them. at this rate, I might as well adopt a cat named Cleo, start pretending I have strong opinions about organic foods, and wave goodbye to my true self because honestly, who cares about happiness when you can keep the facade alive?
not gonna lie, I looked in the mirror the other day and realized the person staring back was built on my parents' dreams, not my own. I mean, I never even liked jazz, yet here I am – planning a life filled with berets and brunches, just to avoid disappointing them. at this rate, I might as well adopt a cat named Cleo, start pretending I have strong opinions about organic foods, and wave goodbye to my true self because honestly, who cares about happiness when you can keep the facade alive?
the way that when I sit down to play video games, I pretend it's just for fun, but really I'm drowning out the panic of my reality. each time I hit “start,” I can almost forget that I’m stuck in this loop of exhaustion and avoidance. but then, in those quiet moments, I realize I’m not escaping. I’m just... delaying the inevitable, right? so here I am, controller in hand, heart racing, wondering if...