just spent three hours on hold listening to the same stupid elevator music while they kept saying my insurance denied my surgery because apparently they just LOVE saying no, no, no like that helps anyone at all.
i watched my neighbors throw an extravagant party with catered food and fancy drinks while i sat alone on my worn couch, the one from college that smells like regret. they always seem to be moving forward, and here i am, still unpacking boxes that should have been gone months ago, holding on to a flag that feels more like a reminder of what i lost than a badge of honor.
so there i was, living in my car for three months and calling it an adventure, while my kids looked at me like, “mom, we know this is not a movie, it’s real life.” funny how they can spot the lie but still go along with it, like little co-stars in a comedy that was way too dark to even be funny anymore.
so there i was, living in my car for three months and calling it an adventure, while my kids looked at me like, “mom, we know this is not a movie, it’s real life.” funny how they can spot the lie but still go along with it, like little co-stars in a comedy that was way too dark to even be funny anymore.
just realized i’ve been picking the same cereal for weeks now. staring at it every morning like it might reveal the secret to my future or something, but really its just sugar and nostalgia and now i can’t shake the feeling that my whole life is a loop of same bland choices.