wait—every time I see those engagement posts, I feel like I’m watching a slow-motion train wreck of my own life. I scroll through photos of people I used to know, the smiles seem brighter and more permanent than my current reality. it's weird to feel so surrounded yet so completely alone, stuck between a stack of bills and family pressures—no one gets it. even the idea of marriage feels like a pun...
literally forgot I promised myself I would start cooking at home. actually thought I could save money that way. instead, I’ve been living on instant noodles and random pantry finds, pretending I don’t cringe at my own bank balance every time I check it. it’s wild how everyone thinks I’m doing fine when I’m really just manifesting a gourmet chef to magically appear and fix my life.
no because the way that I reorganized my living room like a completely normal person, but then every piece of furniture still has a heavy vibe of unspoken apologies like, sorry for pretending we aren’t drowning in hidden debt while also being the person who literally brags about their weekend plans. it’s like everyone thinks I’m thriving when I’m just... balancing my budget like it’s a house of cards, and every new expense feels like I’m taking another card away, wondering when it’ll all come crashing down...
no because the way that I reorganized my living room like a completely normal person, but then every piece of furniture still has a heavy vibe of unspoken apologies like, sorry for pretending we aren’t drowning in hidden debt while also being the person who literally brags about their weekend plans. it’s like everyone thinks I’m thriving when I’m just... balancing my budget like it’s a house of cards, and every new expense feels like I’m taking another card away, wondering when it’ll all come crashing down...
it's not that i don’t want to cheer for auqib nabi. it's just... while everyone is sharing their successes and stepping into new milestones, here i am, scrolling through pictures of friends flaunting their new homes and cars. sometimes i think i am in a different universe, ek aisi duniya jahan mere paas kuch nahi hai. while they gear up for bigger dreams, i feel like i'm still figuring out what’s ...