i went to the store and just stood in front of the frozen pizzas for like five minutes, totally forgot why i was even there. now i’m back home empty handed, just another reminder that i should have ordered from that annoying amazon again.
कभी कभी लगता है जैसे मैं इस दुनिया में एक outsider हूँ, जैसे मैंने कितनी किताबें पढ़ ली हैं पर फिर भी सभी को समझ नहीं पाता। मेरी roommate एक बार यूं ही मुझे बताया कि वो अपने पुराने स्कूल के दोस्तों के साथ हर हफ्ते जाती है, और मैं बस अपने एकटेपन में ही जी रहा हूँ, यार, कोई समझता नहीं।
sitting on my couch staring at a half-eaten sandwich that i just cant bring myself to finish while watching my neighbor's lights twinkle as they throw their holiday party, knowing i would probably struggle to get down the hall much less join them and pretend like everything is okay when i can barely muster the energy to keep my eyes open, it all feels so empty.
sitting on my couch staring at a half-eaten sandwich that i just cant bring myself to finish while watching my neighbor's lights twinkle as they throw their holiday party, knowing i would probably struggle to get down the hall much less join them and pretend like everything is okay when i can barely muster the energy to keep my eyes open, it all feels so empty.
so i spent three hours obsessively checking my phone for a reply, and when it finally came, i realized i had sent a whole paragraph about my lunch plans to my dentist instead of my friend, like who even cares about my tuna salad—now i have to go in for a cleaning with that in my head, ugh