sitting here scrolling through my contacts and realizing there is literally no one i can reach out to for a laugh or a rant or just to vent and it hits me how heavy that loneliness is, like some kind of thick fog that just won't lift, you know?
why does no one think about the kid's birthday party that's just weeks away while i am scrambling to find somewhere for us to live? it feels like all i get is bad options and everyone keeps acting like it should be easy to figure out.
cleaned off one tiny corner of my desk today and convinced myself i deserve a medal for that while also realizing i could probably write a book on all the things ive procrastinated on for months.
cleaned off one tiny corner of my desk today and convinced myself i deserve a medal for that while also realizing i could probably write a book on all the things ive procrastinated on for months.
it feels like im stuck in a ritual, every day is like a prayer that keeps me tied to this life decision i never wanted, और कोई समझता नहीं, ऐसे कितनी दफ़ा ये दिल कहता है कि सबकुछ बुरा है पर मैं फिर भी सबको दिखा रही हूँ कि सब ठीक है.