literally told my friends I was busy this weekend because I had a “thing” but like, the real thing is I just spent my last ten bucks on a snack and now I’m pretending to be cool with Netflix and my dog instead of admitting I can’t afford to hang out like... honestly, sometimes I just want to scream that adulting is a scam.
last night, i overheard my parents comparing me to my cousin who’s apparently conquering the world but has panic attacks nobody knows about. i wanted to scream because they just see grades and job titles, while i’m over here struggling to breathe under their expectations. nobody sees the breakdowns, just the surface sparkle. do they think failure is a choice? yaar, matlab samjho na, pressure doesn...
how does the success of the air force exercises reflect on my day-to-day grind? i mean, here i am, feeling like the family’s failed project, and they keep comparing me to people doing elite training in the military. meanwhile, i can’t even manage to lift myself out of the paycheck-to-paycheck cycle without collapsing. i wonder if they know how it feels to juggle a fake smile and anxiety every time they check my finances. what is even success if it feels this heavy? #PafGoldenEagleTraining #RelatableStruggles
how does the success of the air force exercises reflect on my day-to-day grind? i mean, here i am, feeling like the family’s failed project, and they keep comparing me to people doing elite training in the military. meanwhile, i can’t even manage to lift myself out of the paycheck-to-paycheck cycle without collapsing. i wonder if they know how it feels to juggle a fake smile and anxiety every time they check my finances. what is even success if it feels this heavy? #PafGoldenEagleTraining #RelatableStruggles
last night, i saw old pictures of myself, and like, who even is that person? part of me misses the carefree vibe and the confidence that comes with ignorance, but then there's the grown-up reality that hits way harder. i mean, yeah, i have more responsibility now, but it feels like i’ve also lost a bit of magic somewhere. maybe growth just looks a lot like losing who you used to be, and honestly, ...