literally, i was caught staring at my empty fridge wondering if eating another packet of instant noodles would finally get me out of this living paycheck to paycheck hell. actually, my friends think i’m thriving, but the truth is, i have more hidden debt than conversations where i can admit i’m broke. i pretend to be okay, but i secretly practice my excuses before social events, and sometimes i fe...
last night, my aunt cornered me at a family function about marriage, while I'm over here barely keeping my life together, eating instant noodles for dinner because my finances can’t even handle health insurance. like, yaar, matlab samjho na, I still don’t know how to adult, let alone plan a wedding. it’s like asking a toddler to build a rocket. I smiled, nodded, and internally screamed, 'just let ...
literally every family gathering feels like an audition, where I am not quite sure if I'm performing or just trying to survive. honestly, do my parents think I just don't care, or do they just not see how heavy their expectations can be? my siblings shine like stars, while I’m over here perfecting my 'happy face,' wondering if the energy I love in baristas is the kind of happiness I’m actually supposed to be feeling. does anyone else walk out feeling like a failure, or is it just me carrying the weight of unspoken disappointments? #familypressure #livingtheperformance
literally every family gathering feels like an audition, where I am not quite sure if I'm performing or just trying to survive. honestly, do my parents think I just don't care, or do they just not see how heavy their expectations can be? my siblings shine like stars, while I’m over here perfecting my 'happy face,' wondering if the energy I love in baristas is the kind of happiness I’m actually supposed to be feeling. does anyone else walk out feeling like a failure, or is it just me carrying the weight of unspoken disappointments? #familypressure #livingtheperformance
ng pamilya talaga. family gatherings feel like an interrogation on how many kids i'm planning to send to school. i don’t have a solution to my own loans, and yet they look at me like i'm a charity fund. it hurts knowing that my sacrifices mean nothing to them when they see me as an obligation. wala naman silang nakakaalam sa pinagdadaanan ko. #MuhamadAkmalSaleh #RelatableMisery