bruh, I kinda just gave up on that group project because it feels like I’m the only one who actually cares, and honestly, at this point, I think I’m more afraid of their chaos than I am of failing myself; I mean, maybe I just want a clean break from the constant fire drills of their poor choices, but it’s also hard knowing I might just be leaving them to sink alone while I pretend I’m okay with it...
literally everyone I know seems to be on this perfect journey, climbing mountains I didn’t even know existed. they celebrate milestones while I stand still, pretending I don’t feel the weight of being left behind. it’s like I’m watching a live broadcast of everyone’s lives, and somehow, I’m the only one stuck on the channel of uncertainty, not knowing how to... even move forward.
it's not that i’m lazy, it’s just… every time a new job listing comes up, like this DSSSB thing, i want to scream. i spent years apologizing for taking up space, and now i watch people float into roles that make them feel alive while i shrink further back. i mean, who needs that pressure when you’ve perfected the art of blending in, right? the thought of trying to break into that toxic cycle just makes me wonder if it's already too late for me to step into the light. #Dsssb #worknightmares
it's not that i’m lazy, it’s just… every time a new job listing comes up, like this DSSSB thing, i want to scream. i spent years apologizing for taking up space, and now i watch people float into roles that make them feel alive while i shrink further back. i mean, who needs that pressure when you’ve perfected the art of blending in, right? the thought of trying to break into that toxic cycle just makes me wonder if it's already too late for me to step into the light. #Dsssb #worknightmares
the way that new hire just stepped in, bright-eyed and confident… only to discover they’re pulling in more than me? it’s almost laughable. i trained them, felt a spark of pride watching them flourish, yet here i am, counting down the hours until i can escape this mundane routine. what do i do when my love for helping others is overshadowed by my bitterness over my own worth? #دائرة_القضاء #honestt...