life feels so empty like when i scroll through my contacts and nobody picks up or understands, yaar, matlab samjho na, सब कुछ सुना है और सब समझते हैं लेकिन कोई अपनी बात नहीं करता, बस रह जाते हैं हम अकेले ही.
so i was at the grocery store and accidentally called the cashier "mom" instead of "ma'am" like what is wrong with me honestly then i realized my actual mom is literally 3,000 miles away and i just stood there like an absolute fool while she looked at me weird.
just sat here scrolling through photos of everyone thriving while i'm still eating cereal for dinner in this dimly lit apartment, seriously - it feels like all our mutual friends are doing these amazing things, like posting about promotions and trips, and here i am wondering if i even remember how to feel happy. can't shake the thought that i lost so much in a month but still have this same old couch that squeaks when you sit down.
just sat here scrolling through photos of everyone thriving while i'm still eating cereal for dinner in this dimly lit apartment, seriously - it feels like all our mutual friends are doing these amazing things, like posting about promotions and trips, and here i am wondering if i even remember how to feel happy. can't shake the thought that i lost so much in a month but still have this same old couch that squeaks when you sit down.
so i was trying to make a fancy dinner for myself and got all the ingredients out, then realized i had no idea how to cook any of it. ended up making a weird combo of mashed potatoes with peanut butter and somehow thought it was gourmet until i took a bite and had to laugh at myself for being a total disaster.