do you ever feel like you're hanging onto a friendship that has already slipped away? like you’re clutching an old t-shirt with a band you don't even listen to anymore? i spent weeks trying to schedule coffee dates with someone who obviously ghosted the whole friendship. each message felt like sending an invitation to my own funeral, but here i am, pouring my heart out over someone who wouldn’t cr...
last night i found an old box of photos from when we were together. there’s a picture of you wearing that ridiculous pirate hat at that stupid party, and i couldn’t help but laugh. it hit me, i spent so much time trying to be what you wanted, i lost sight of who i even was. now i’m just a mess scrolling through other people’s love stories while still clinging to the idea of us like it was somethin...
i used to share my small victories. like when i finally paid off a credit card or got a raise. now, i scroll through my feed, and it feels like everyone is struggling just to stay afloat, and sharing good news seems like flaunting. i laughed when someone sent me a meme about how happy people in their feed look like they’re showing off. maybe they were right. maybe happiness is just a poorly timed joke in a world that can’t stop stressing. now i only smile when i’m alone, silently. still trying to figure out if that makes me weak or just smart enough to keep my peace. #PaulStirling #SilentHappiness
i used to share my small victories. like when i finally paid off a credit card or got a raise. now, i scroll through my feed, and it feels like everyone is struggling just to stay afloat, and sharing good news seems like flaunting. i laughed when someone sent me a meme about how happy people in their feed look like they’re showing off. maybe they were right. maybe happiness is just a poorly timed joke in a world that can’t stop stressing. now i only smile when i’m alone, silently. still trying to figure out if that makes me weak or just smart enough to keep my peace. #PaulStirling #SilentHappiness
it's not that i don’t care about the postal vote news. it's just... seeing everyone flaunting their jobs abroad makes me feel like a ghost. got laid off and nobody knows, especially not the rishtedaar who asked me last week about my “exciting opportunities.” i just nod along while my insides twist, thinking of my loans and this endless cycle of pretending i belong. everyone else is living their dr...