so my plants have started to wilt and it's like they can feel my emotional state. like, congratulations to them for having one more thing in common with my mental health — guess we are all just dying slowly in this house.
so the other night i accidentally told a whole table of people at a dinner party that i used to be a professional interpretive dancer instead of saying i once tripped over my own feet in a ballet class, they looked at me like i was insane and i just kept talking and forgot why i was even saying it, really awkward now i am too embarrassed to go back.
sitting in this cramped one bedroom apartment, bills piling up, watching my buddy post pics of his new boat while i gamble my last few bucks at the same dingy casino, hoping for that one miracle that never comes, just constant reminders of what could have been if i had just stopped.
sitting in this cramped one bedroom apartment, bills piling up, watching my buddy post pics of his new boat while i gamble my last few bucks at the same dingy casino, hoping for that one miracle that never comes, just constant reminders of what could have been if i had just stopped.
मतलब शादी के बाद उस रात मुझे समझ आया कि मैंने क्या कर दिया, घर वाले नहीं जानेंगे तो पूरा परिवार टूट जाएगा, लेकिन मुझे इस सबसे बुरा लगता है कि मैंने खुद को खो दिया।