Confessions: kya kehna, school chhod ke kaam karte hue ab tak kahan aa gayi, itna mehnat kiya…

जितना भी समझने की कोशिश की सब बेकार था, उस दिन की बात याद आती है जब सब मुझसे दूर हो गए थे, कोई भी मुझसे आमने-सामने नहीं आया और उस चुप्पी ने ऐसा लगवाया कि जैसे सबको मेरी असली पहचान पता है।

woke up at the shelter, kicked out at 7am, spent the whole day wandering around like i actually have somewhere to be. pretending to hustle but really just counting down the hours until i can go back to the same empty room, feels so pointless.

i have not stepped outside in three weeks and sometimes i think about just rolling out of my apartment into the middle of the street just to feel something different, but then i remember the elevator has been broken for eight months and honestly i feel like a ghost in my own life.