literally just scrolled through old messages with people I used to laugh with. now we’re all living in our little bubbles, pretending to be okay. it’s wild knowing I could call hundreds of people, but none of them would really get it. everyone’s busy, everyone’s moved on, and I’m here googling things like “how to be okay alone” at three in the morning. honestly, I’m tired of feeling like a strange...
the way that I saw my classmate’s wedding video. 50 lakhs on a day that lasts like… what, a few hours? meanwhile, here I am, living off leftover parathas and pretending that my instant noodles are gourmet. sometimes I wonder if this is all worth it, sacrificing everything to be here and now questioning... what, mein khud ka nahi dekh sakta? like, kuch samajh nahi aa raha. I keep thinking, how do you throw that kind of money around when life feels like... did I even get a fair shot? #IndVaPak #WeddingsAreWeird
the way that I saw my classmate’s wedding video. 50 lakhs on a day that lasts like… what, a few hours? meanwhile, here I am, living off leftover parathas and pretending that my instant noodles are gourmet. sometimes I wonder if this is all worth it, sacrificing everything to be here and now questioning... what, mein khud ka nahi dekh sakta? like, kuch samajh nahi aa raha. I keep thinking, how do you throw that kind of money around when life feels like... did I even get a fair shot? #IndVaPak #WeddingsAreWeird
last night, i found myself on a deep dive about Grimsby Town’s next match against Wolves. i had a weird laugh thinking about how a tiny town can capture a moment of hope amidst my own life feeling like a never-ending draw. i mean, sure they might win or lose, but at least they're out there, not pretending like i am, trapped in a job where nobody knows my real dreams. just wondering if there's more...