i cannot believe i got the call saying i got the job. was so sure they would say no, was already stressing about how to tell my family but here i am, just sitting with this crazy good news and it feels AMAZING.
yaar, matlab samjho na, i spend hours creating outfits in my head but never wear them. मेरे पास ड्रेसिंग करने की हिम्मत नहीं है, बस देखती रहती हूँ।
i sit in my tiny apartment, the sound of the food delivery app pinging feels like a joke when i remember the long nights i spent studying medicine, and now im just a ghost in the streets delivering meals while my friends from med school post pictures in their scrubs, making double what i get in a week just by sitting in an office. some days it feels like im stuck on the outside looking in at a life i gave up for a dream that turned into this, a constant hustle to barely pay rent and eat.
i sit in my tiny apartment, the sound of the food delivery app pinging feels like a joke when i remember the long nights i spent studying medicine, and now im just a ghost in the streets delivering meals while my friends from med school post pictures in their scrubs, making double what i get in a week just by sitting in an office. some days it feels like im stuck on the outside looking in at a life i gave up for a dream that turned into this, a constant hustle to barely pay rent and eat.
yaar, matlab samjho na, when you finally have a full grocery cart and realize they don't have the one thing you wanted to make that special dish, and the cashier gives you that look like, "good luck with the cooking." it's like they should just hand you a trophy for mastering the art of failure while everyone else gets to go home and enjoy their perfect lives.