if you are feeling overwhelmed by everything happening at once, just know that it is okay to take a step back. remember, even the darkest nights will eventually lead to the light of a new day. #MentalHealthSupport #HopeExists #YouAreNotAlone
एक बार मम्मी ने कहा, "पैसों की कमी नहीं है, बस खर्चा कम करो," जब मैं उन्हें बताता हूं कि मेरी महंगी दवाई का बिल देखकर मैं कितनी बार रो चुका हूं - अब तो खुद से ही कहता हूं कि मैं काम करता हूं तो बस हर महीने टुकड़े-टुकड़े बचाता हूं और फिर बासी चावल पर बची हुई दाल डालकर खा लेता हूं - बुरा नहीं लगता, लेकिन जब वही मम्मी बेमन से कहते हैं कि क्या कभी पनीर बना पाऊंगा, तो उस वक्त वो ईश्वर की योजना लगती है।
it's not that i wanted to cut my parents off. it's just i got tired of explaining why their calls felt like receiving a jigsaw puzzle with half the pieces missing. while my friends throw their 10th anniversary parties at nice venues, i'm at my one-bedroom in a rundown area eating instant noodles and binge-watching the same show for the fourth time. everyone says i’m ungrateful, but they dont see how my hands shake every time i try to be honest about the past that lingers like an old smell in my tiny closet.
it's not that i wanted to cut my parents off. it's just i got tired of explaining why their calls felt like receiving a jigsaw puzzle with half the pieces missing. while my friends throw their 10th anniversary parties at nice venues, i'm at my one-bedroom in a rundown area eating instant noodles and binge-watching the same show for the fourth time. everyone says i’m ungrateful, but they dont see how my hands shake every time i try to be honest about the past that lingers like an old smell in my tiny closet.
wait, so five years of late nights cramming past papers and all I have to show for it is a collection of rejection letters stuffed into a drawer—my family now just looks at me like I’m some ghost haunting the living room, silently judging me for not becoming one of those burnt-out machines from IIT—like, what was all that effort worth if I cannot even afford a slice of pizza on Friday nights? #fai...