yar, matlab samjho na, five years wasted on UPSC and all i have to show for it is a collection of rejection letters. घर वाले समझते नहीं, kya karein ab, mujhe job bhi nahi mil raha, aakhir kisne bola tha is race mein daudne ke liye.
had a really great day yesterday. took a walk, felt the sun and smiled, but now it hits me how much i miss just talking to someone.
so there i was, sitting in the vet’s office alone like some sad, out-of-business pet psychic, and as i held my dog, i was pretty sure they were the only thing keeping me somewhat human in this chaotic world. then i drove home to an empty apartment, feeling like a ghost in a museum of unshared moments, because somehow cleaning the floors feels more meaningful than all those endless questions about the housing market rigging our lives.
so there i was, sitting in the vet’s office alone like some sad, out-of-business pet psychic, and as i held my dog, i was pretty sure they were the only thing keeping me somewhat human in this chaotic world. then i drove home to an empty apartment, feeling like a ghost in a museum of unshared moments, because somehow cleaning the floors feels more meaningful than all those endless questions about the housing market rigging our lives.
i spent an hour just staring at my walls after finishing a book, like i forgot how to think without someone else’s words in my head. it was supposed to be a good ending, but all it did was leave me empty, just so empty.