हर कोई इस खबर की बात कर रहा है कि रुमीन फ़रहाना जीत रही हैं, लेकिन मैं सिर्फ यही सोच रही हूं कि मुझे ये समझ नहीं आता कैसे कोई बिना लड़ाई के अपनी पहचान बना लेता है। यार, मैं अपनी जिन्दगी में ऐसे कोई चमत्कार क्यों नहीं कर पा रही? आज देखा कि मेरा कॉलेज दोस्त नया प्रोजेक्ट शुरू कर रहा है। जबकि मैं अपने दोस्तों से बिछड़ चुकी हूँ और अकेले एक हीरो बनने की कोशिश कर रही हूँ। जैसे मेरे खुद के सपने धुंधले हो...
literally saw everyone at the reunion talking about their new promotions and buying flats, and here I am, still working the same dead-end job since twenty nineteen. honestly, the last time I had a real upgrade was when I switched from instant noodles to pasta. then my aunt casually mentions my neighbor got a sports car and I'm still checking my bank account like it’s some kind of reality show elim...
I think it’s funny how I can scroll through the perfect couples on my feed—smiling faces, shared dreams—and all I can think about is how I built my entire identity around someone who isn't even in my life anymore. I mean, there I am, liking a post from my ex while I’m in deep stalk mode, panicking like I've just walked into an ex's wedding uninvited—distracted and lost. Sometimes I feel like I’m on a never-ending first date with myself, swiping right on potential but never showing up.
I think it’s funny how I can scroll through the perfect couples on my feed—smiling faces, shared dreams—and all I can think about is how I built my entire identity around someone who isn't even in my life anymore. I mean, there I am, liking a post from my ex while I’m in deep stalk mode, panicking like I've just walked into an ex's wedding uninvited—distracted and lost. Sometimes I feel like I’m on a never-ending first date with myself, swiping right on potential but never showing up.
the way that burnley vs mansfield town is a big deal but nobody is talking about how my last exam felt like playing on a field without a goal post. no one prepares you for the anxiety of trying to make sense of it all while juggling loan payments and the expectation to have it figured out. every time my cousin posts their fancy brunch abroad, i'm like do i need to re-evaluate my choices? struggle ...