i just saw my neighbor post pictures of their new garden. i thought, wow, how nice for you, but also why does my own collection of dying houseplants haunt me like a failed horror movie? i can't afford actual dirt but they’re out here digging in it like they're winning life’s lottery. part of me thinks, if i manifest hard enough, maybe the universe will drop a miracle on my doorstep. too bad my las...
just saw the updates about the new program for food assistance. funny how that’s what my life has come to—waiting in lines for scraps while friends keep posting photos of their happy couple weekends. i quit my stable job to chase something "better" but ended up running out of steam, running on empty. did i really build my entire identity around someone else just to watch everyone move on without m...
i’ve started to practice my reactions for when friends announce they’re buying horses. yes, horses. meanwhile, i still can’t decide if i’m more ashamed of my grocery store brand cereal or the fact that i often rehearse enthusiastic congratulations in the mirror. why do they get fancy stable life while i’m struggling to keep my apartment plants alive? am i really that out of touch, or is everyone else just pretending they didn’t see me sweating at the bus stop in last year’s jacket?
i’ve started to practice my reactions for when friends announce they’re buying horses. yes, horses. meanwhile, i still can’t decide if i’m more ashamed of my grocery store brand cereal or the fact that i often rehearse enthusiastic congratulations in the mirror. why do they get fancy stable life while i’m struggling to keep my apartment plants alive? am i really that out of touch, or is everyone else just pretending they didn’t see me sweating at the bus stop in last year’s jacket?
yoo, so my family keeps dropping “remember when your ex brought us that amazing cheese platter?” like it’s a normal way to segue into dinner conversation, and i just sit there sipping my iced tea, dying inside because now i'm envisioning my life as an episode of euphoria where the dramatic twist is just me hiding in the bathroom, regretting all my life choices while pondering how to convince my cu...