so my toilet just decided to back up, right as i was checking my account and i saw the balance was literally zero. now i have to choose between calling a plumber or paying my internet bill and i honestly can't believe how trapped i feel, like, why is being an adult this hard.
saw a woman at the cafe with a matching purse and shoes and thought about how i have not been able to afford new sneakers for over a year and yeah, the only thing on my mind is if i can pay the electric bill without overdrafting this month.
watched my son walk out of that building for the last time and thought about how the world just decides you are done when you turn 22. now he is home and there are no plans, no help, just a constant echo of what ifs and a debt of loneliness that seems to grow.
watched my son walk out of that building for the last time and thought about how the world just decides you are done when you turn 22. now he is home and there are no plans, no help, just a constant echo of what ifs and a debt of loneliness that seems to grow.
so i literally found out my entire book club was just an elaborate ploy for my neighbor to sell me on this weird alternative energy course they were hosting, like now i am reconsidering everything i thought was a plot twist in my life and all i really want is my tea and silence.