just checked my bank account and it feels like the universe is telling me i cannot afford to pay my rent and the grocery bill at the same time, why do i even bother working all these extra shifts when it just disappears, and now my parent fell again and it’s so exhausting feeling this constant financial strain on everything, like how am i supposed to do it all when nothing ever feels stable.
just sat through another dinner where my new stepdad’s always smiling at my half siblings and it stings like crazy to watch them laugh together. like, i should say something but instead i just keep nodding along and wishing i felt like i belonged here at all.
got my disability denied for a condition that has me gasping for breath just walking to the bathroom, and now i feel like a really bad magician, pulling disappointment out of my own hat.
got my disability denied for a condition that has me gasping for breath just walking to the bathroom, and now i feel like a really bad magician, pulling disappointment out of my own hat.
आज सुबह सब्जी लेते वक्त जो दूकानदार ने कहा वो बहुत अजीब था, कुछ भी समझ में नहीं आया लेकिन बस हंस दिया मैंने। सोच रही हूं क्यों इतना बड़ा झूठ बोलता है वो, सब्जियाँ ऐसी नहीं दिखतीं जैसी वो बताता है, पर फिर भी…