honestly, my family brags about me to neighbors like i'm some kind of award-winning hero, while i'm literally just drowning in a sea of bills and self-doubt. they think i'm living my dream, but deep down, i'm just a confused mess wondering if i'll ever stop ghosting old friends who used to know me before everything got so complicated. #ArjunTendulkar #ExistentialCrisis
day 47 of feeling like a ghost. i have hundreds of contacts in my phone but sometimes i feel like i am living in a crowded room and nobody even glances my way. it’s almost comedic how everyone wants my emotional labor but when i need a friend, it’s like i’ve become invisible. i should have checked in on them, but honestly, if one more person asks how i am and doesn't even wait for the answer, i mi...
it's not that i don't enjoy painting. it's just that i feel like every brush stroke is a reminder of how much better i was when you were my muse. why is it that colors seem so dull now? did you take my inspiration with you? every time i mix the paint, it feels like trying to piece together a broken heart with a palette knife. do you think this is how van Gogh felt when he cut off his ear, except mine is just filled with the sound of silence? where did all my creativity go when you left?
it's not that i don't enjoy painting. it's just that i feel like every brush stroke is a reminder of how much better i was when you were my muse. why is it that colors seem so dull now? did you take my inspiration with you? every time i mix the paint, it feels like trying to piece together a broken heart with a palette knife. do you think this is how van Gogh felt when he cut off his ear, except mine is just filled with the sound of silence? where did all my creativity go when you left?
i woke up this morning to discover my favorite pair of socks are finally disintegrating, which feels symbolic, you know? pretending to have it all together while buying off-brand toothpaste because the fancy stuff feels too indulgent. but hey, the neighbors think i just ordered takeout when really it's a hefty two-for-one ramen deal that i justified with the thought, "it's fine, it counts as a mea...