just spent all day cleaning my apartment because it felt messy and cluttered, but then realized i just ended up organizing the same four boxes over and over while my friends are all getting promotions and vacations and i'm just here with a pile of socks in the corner.
was in line at the grocery store and saw a sign for some fancy cheese but then realized i only had enough for the basic stuff, felt so silly standing there pretending to browse while the cart was just basic bread and cheap eggs, why am i even doing this, that cheese looked so good but i cant even afford to splurge on a treat
i literally just stood in the kitchen for ten minutes staring at an empty shelf that used to have all my cookbooks, now that my ex moved out, and the silence felt so loud that i forgot how to remember what it was like to open a page and actually cook something good, just nothing feels real anymore.
i literally just stood in the kitchen for ten minutes staring at an empty shelf that used to have all my cookbooks, now that my ex moved out, and the silence felt so loud that i forgot how to remember what it was like to open a page and actually cook something good, just nothing feels real anymore.
just found out the ice cream truck that drove through my neighborhood every summer was actually run by my parents and now i can't look at a popsicle without feeling this weird mix of nostalgia and betrayal like what even is summer anymore.