just checked my bank account and saw that i can’t even afford the supplies for a simple painting class i wanted to take, which would’ve helped me unwind a bit. feels like every time i try to pursue something i love, there’s this wall of bills and responsibilities slapping me back into reality.
i seriously thought that baking bread would be a total disaster but somehow the dough rose perfectly and it turned out delicious - like, i did not think my kitchen skills would ever reach this level, especially after the last thing i tried went so wrong. just feels so good to actually create something instead of messing it up for once.
i used to love painting but now its like i only get a few minutes here and there and the canvas just sits there taunting me while the only thing i really want to do is mix colors and forget about the piles of bills but the thought of starting again feels like a whole other world and im just stuck in this same room.
i used to love painting but now its like i only get a few minutes here and there and the canvas just sits there taunting me while the only thing i really want to do is mix colors and forget about the piles of bills but the thought of starting again feels like a whole other world and im just stuck in this same room.
just checked my bank account and i thought i had enough for that new record drop but nope. now i have to decide if i should buy groceries or chase this dream, like, really?