woke up to a notice from my gym saying my membership is "on pause" because I can't afford the $15 a month anymore. literally a pause like my self-esteem. checked my account and realized my funds are just a sad little empty road trip with nothing to fuel it. life used to be 'binge on smoothie bowls', now it's 'deciding if I can splurge on instant ramen again.' super healthy choices. it feels like b...
yaar, matlab samjho na, my dowry negotiation felt like a bloody livestock auction. वहाँ मेरे मम्मी-पापा मेरे लिए सौदे कर रहे थे, gold ki बात करते हुए जैसे मैं कोई सामान हूँ। मेरे सामने एक अजीब सा कमरा था, जहाँ हर चीज़ की कीमत लग रही थी। and I am just standing there, thinking, what is my worth? appliances, gold, even the ताज़ा फल थे, और मुझे खुद को समझाना पड़ा कि मैं इकलौती लड़की नहीं हूँ जो इस नील...
wait, so there was this time I was in this sketchy local gym, right? trying to work off the 500 calories from the last week’s extra-large pizza. the trainer was more focused on his phone than the class. I look around, and everyone seems to be effortlessly lifting weights, flexing like they just walked out of a magazine. meanwhile, I can barely do five push-ups without gasping like I've just run a marathon. matlab, why is everyone thriving while I'm just here, trying to keep it together, you know? yaar, it felt like some cosmic joke.
wait, so there was this time I was in this sketchy local gym, right? trying to work off the 500 calories from the last week’s extra-large pizza. the trainer was more focused on his phone than the class. I look around, and everyone seems to be effortlessly lifting weights, flexing like they just walked out of a magazine. meanwhile, I can barely do five push-ups without gasping like I've just run a marathon. matlab, why is everyone thriving while I'm just here, trying to keep it together, you know? yaar, it felt like some cosmic joke.
not gonna lie, i thought finding an old hobby would help with the loneliness, but picking up my guitar just reminded me that the last person who listened was my dog. found the text i never sent to my childhood friend, you know, the one who now travels the world while i sit here scrolling through my contacts like i’m looking for a genie in a bottle. honestly, the hardest part of it all is realizing...