i sat down to check my account and it was like getting punched in the gut when i saw there was barely enough for my meds this month, let alone anything extra like that doctor appointment i was dreading, and the thought of it just spirals into not being able to handle the rent and oh god that sleepless night ahead again.
sat down to check my bank account and—wow—couldn't believe i was already down to the last fifty dollars, bills looming over me like some bad horror movie, the worst part is i still owe for my phone bill and that's not even counting the car repairs i keep putting off.
یار، سوچو نہ، آج تو بس وہ ڈاکٹروں کا فون آیا اور میں واقعی حیران ہوں کہ سب کچھ ٹھیک نکلا۔ کبھی نہیں لگتا تھا کہ یہ دھیما لمحہ اتنا خوشگوار ہو سکتا ہے، کوئی سمجھتا نہیں کہ اتنا خوف تھا اندر۔
یار، سوچو نہ، آج تو بس وہ ڈاکٹروں کا فون آیا اور میں واقعی حیران ہوں کہ سب کچھ ٹھیک نکلا۔ کبھی نہیں لگتا تھا کہ یہ دھیما لمحہ اتنا خوشگوار ہو سکتا ہے، کوئی سمجھتا نہیں کہ اتنا خوف تھا اندر۔
found an old notebook today, pages filled with thoughts that never went anywhere, reminders of how long its been since i shared anything meaningful with anyone, scrolled through my contacts hoping to find someone to reach out to but every name felt like just a reminder of distance and time slipping away.