Appreciation: if you are feeling overwhelmed right now, just know that you have the strength t…

yaar, matlab samjho na, जब बाप की फसलें तीन साल में ना हों, तो वो किसी चीज़ का थोड़ा ज़्यादा सेवन कर लेता है और सरकार की कर्ज माफी एक हफ्ते बाद आती है, तो मतलब क्या समझें, सब कुछ सच्चाई और तमीज़ की बकरियाँ हैं।

i just spent three hours staring at my phone for a message that probably will not come, feels ridiculous but i keep wondering if somehow my worth is tied to that reply. it's exhausting, and yet here i am, stuck in this loop of anticipation like it actually means something.

sometimes i wonder if i should stop going, like maybe its easier for everyone if they forget that we even have a parent in there. it feels selfish to admit that i dread it, but every visit feels like a ticking clock counting down the days until they forget who i am too.