the other day, i found a pencil i used in high school and it brought back the memory of staring at the clock while the teacher droned on. weird how something so small can make you feel like you are stuck in a time loop and suddenly question all your life choices.
i literally just realized that my entire apartment is filled with all these trophies and medals from high school that I have no idea what to do with now, meanwhile my friends are off traveling the world and living their best lives and I am here stuck with these dusty reminders of what felt like a big deal back then. it honestly feels so ridiculous to hold onto them when I am barely scraping by wit...
honestly, the other day i sent a message about my new job to my mom instead of my friend, and she replied with a thousand exclamation marks, literally made me rethink every life choice because now she thinks i am successful and have my life together when i am just sitting here in my pajamas, eating cereal for dinner.
honestly, the other day i sent a message about my new job to my mom instead of my friend, and she replied with a thousand exclamation marks, literally made me rethink every life choice because now she thinks i am successful and have my life together when i am just sitting here in my pajamas, eating cereal for dinner.
the day cps showed up was the same day i realized i haven't really lived, just gone through the motions like a character in a story nobody reads anymore, but the funny thing is, all i could think about was the perfect granola bars in the cupboard instead of proving i'm enough.