i went to the park yesterday to jog for the first time in ages and the kids chased each other, laughing while i was just trying to keep my breath steady and then i saw this woman with a perfect workout outfit and a fancy water bottle, she smiled and waved but all i could think about was how i never seem to have that kind of energy, and yeah, my shoes are two years old, so it just hit me hard, you ...
so i went to the store to get cake for my birthday and ended up leaving with six bags of chips and a soda. i still have no idea how that happened or why i thought THAT was a good idea.
i spent an hour scrolling through my old journals, feeling so much weight from everyone’s dreams and my messy one bedroom that still smells like the last batch of burnt cookies. my friends post about travel and goals while i just...try to muster the energy to fold laundry, wondering if a little piece of me is left behind with each passing day that feels so heavy and...dark.
i spent an hour scrolling through my old journals, feeling so much weight from everyone’s dreams and my messy one bedroom that still smells like the last batch of burnt cookies. my friends post about travel and goals while i just...try to muster the energy to fold laundry, wondering if a little piece of me is left behind with each passing day that feels so heavy and...dark.
sitting on my couch, staring at the blank walls of this one-bedroom i can barely afford, just got a bill that makes my stomach drop. while my friends post about their vacations and promotions, i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper, like no matter how hard i try, i’m just treading water in a pool that's draining.