not gonna lie, seeing my cousin's flat makes me question everything. everyone thinks i’m living my best life while i'm dodging phone calls from debt collectors and pretending my paycheck covers more than just my overpriced chai. lowkey, i'm manifesting a lottery win or a surprise inheritance like it’s a rom-com. one minute i’m dreaming big, and the next, i’m just stuck between an arranged marriage...
i thought hearting my own message was embarrassing — but then i realized it’s just a reflection of how lonely it gets. like — having this crowded contact list filled with relatives who send random birthday texts but nobody actually calls when things get hard. there’s a hollowness that wraps around me — everyone thinks they know me, but they really don't know a thing — just like how my uncle thinks...
it's not that i care about the credit—it's just that catching my coworker claiming my six-month project felt like watching someone unhinge their jaw and swallow my ideas whole, while i just sat there like a fish at the edge of the tank, hoping nobody would notice the scales slipping off. i mean, if i wanted to be overlooked, i would have joined a quiet support group for people with creative dreams they won’t chase.
it's not that i care about the credit—it's just that catching my coworker claiming my six-month project felt like watching someone unhinge their jaw and swallow my ideas whole, while i just sat there like a fish at the edge of the tank, hoping nobody would notice the scales slipping off. i mean, if i wanted to be overlooked, i would have joined a quiet support group for people with creative dreams they won’t chase.
day 47 of pretending i'm okay while my bank account resembles a ghost town. got asked about job prospects and i just laughed, thinking about my hidden credit card debt. if only they knew how often i use "currently seeking new opportunities" as a conversation starter, while secretly counting pennies for my next meal. it’s funny, because everyone thinks i’m doing just fine when i’m really just good ...