it's not that i dont care about friendships, it's just that seeing my classmate's wedding video hits different, ya know? everyone looks so happy while i'm just here, drowning in student loans, trying to figure out if my debt will ever let me breathe. i scroll through my contacts and realize, despite having so many 'friends,' there’s nobody to share this loneliness with, matlab kya karu? it's like ...
honestly, i just got an email about the state pension freeze, and all i could think about was how i'm still scrounging through my couch for spare change to avoid telling my roommate i can’t pay my half of rent this month. i'm pretending like everything's fine while I see my sibling post vacation pics from places they won't ever invite me to. meanwhile, my biggest goal is deciding if i can afford t...
last night, i stood in my kitchen, pouring water into a mug i bought from a thrift store for fifty cents. i felt sick scrolling through a friend's vacation photos, laughing in front of their shiny new home, while i debated if i could afford a bag of chips this week. it's like watching a parade go by while you're stuck in the crowd, but no one waves at you. so i waved anyway.
last night, i stood in my kitchen, pouring water into a mug i bought from a thrift store for fifty cents. i felt sick scrolling through a friend's vacation photos, laughing in front of their shiny new home, while i debated if i could afford a bag of chips this week. it's like watching a parade go by while you're stuck in the crowd, but no one waves at you. so i waved anyway.
wait, so the other day I hearted my own comment in a group chat like I’m some kind of narcissistic influencer, and honestly, the panic that followed was insane. it was literally the equivalent of shouting "I’m the best!" in a room full of people just crickets back at me. I mean, can we talk about how I went to make it look like I was supporting someone else’s brilliant take, and instead I became t...