i told everyone i can't go out because my back hurts. but honestly, it's just because my fridge is empty and my bank account looks like a ghost town. the truth is, spending the night eating leftover peanut butter and dreaming about sushi is way less glamorous than saying i'm "feeling under the weather." if they only knew how often i’ve used that line as a get-out-of-jail-free card. #adulting #secr...
so i was looking at my spotify wrapped - and realized my top songs scream “please someone love me” while also echoing “i am totally fine alone” - like how do i curate a playlist of “existential dread” but still think i’ll magically meet someone in the grocery store who feels me deeply, like i’m here tossing frozen broccoli into my cart thinking, surely a fellow existential mess will see my John Ma...
why does it feel like everyone else is pairing up while I’m just sitting here knitting sweaters for imaginary friends? I built my life around someone who liked to run marathons—and I can’t even run for the bus without regretting my choices. sometimes I catch a glimpse of their Instagram—a happy life that isn’t mine, but should be—while I fold another sweater for nobody, wondering if I traded my heart for some mediocre yarn.
why does it feel like everyone else is pairing up while I’m just sitting here knitting sweaters for imaginary friends? I built my life around someone who liked to run marathons—and I can’t even run for the bus without regretting my choices. sometimes I catch a glimpse of their Instagram—a happy life that isn’t mine, but should be—while I fold another sweater for nobody, wondering if I traded my heart for some mediocre yarn.
just realized that in my quest to become a "cool" indie film director, i might have accidentally sabotaged my one shot at glory by treating a crucial crew member like they were a paperweight. like, i didn't just forget their name, i forgot their purpose on set. i remember feeling like a rockstar in my oversized beret, but honestly, they probably remember me as the awkward wannabe who mistook their...