i found out they never actually broke up with their ex, and now every time we’re together, all i can think about is how i’m just a placeholder until they decide to sort out their mess… it feels like playing house with someone who’s still packing their bags.
have you ever stood at a party, surrounded by couples who seem to orbit each other like gravity? and there you are—trying to remember what it felt like to be wrapped up in someone else's warmth—wondering if the person you lost is doing just fine without you. the truth? my identity got tangled up in who we were together, and now i’m just the ghost of that version of me—dancing awkwardly, unsure of ...
day 12 of pretending to be fine. just got back from another family gathering where they introduced me as "MNC mein kaam karta hai." they don’t see the hours I spend doubting myself, trying to make sense of a life they don't understand. every cousin seems to have this golden career while I'm just surviving at twenty-five k. when will I tell them that their comparisons suffocate me? i sat there, smiling, feeling like a complete failure, thinking... #PafGoldenEagleTraining #RealityCheck
day 12 of pretending to be fine. just got back from another family gathering where they introduced me as "MNC mein kaam karta hai." they don’t see the hours I spend doubting myself, trying to make sense of a life they don't understand. every cousin seems to have this golden career while I'm just surviving at twenty-five k. when will I tell them that their comparisons suffocate me? i sat there, smiling, feeling like a complete failure, thinking... #PafGoldenEagleTraining #RealityCheck
day 12 of scrolling through couples on social media and my mom asked me when I’ll be having kids again—like that’s even in the realm of possibility when my last breakup felt like losing a limb, but I guess no one talks about the shattered pieces left behind when you build your whole identity around someone who’s just… gone—maybe I should just get a plant or something, those don’t leave you hanging...