literally unsent a message meant for my crush, the barista with the dreamy smile and laugh that feels like warm sunshine. it was just about how her presence makes my mornings brighter. then I saw her reply and I panicked. now it’s even worse, she knows I was thinking about her but now I’ve acted like I wasn’t. it’s funny how I crave her energy but I keep drowning in my own stupid fears. am I ever ...
ever checked your family group chat and felt your stomach drop? i did that today, right after seeing that Emma Raducanu made it to the semis. good for her. meanwhile, my mom still thinks my PhD is just a “cute little hobby” while my cousins rattle off their perfect lives like trophies. I feel like a failure for not following the straight path. every family gathering feels like an interrogation. ma...
it’s not that I regret leaving my job—it’s just that at family gatherings, my parents ask how it’s going like I’m some sort of tortured artist living the dream. they don't understand the dream looks more like me wearing pajamas at noon, eating cereal while my phone buzzes with rejection emails. my cousins all have steady jobs, perfect homes, and they casually discuss stock options like it’s a language I can’t quite grasp. I keep getting asked when I’m going to ‘get serious’—and every ‘serious’ question just adds another layer to my guilt, like I’m wearing the world's heaviest coat of disappointment—while secretly plotting the sequel to my unfulfilled ambitions.
it’s not that I regret leaving my job—it’s just that at family gatherings, my parents ask how it’s going like I’m some sort of tortured artist living the dream. they don't understand the dream looks more like me wearing pajamas at noon, eating cereal while my phone buzzes with rejection emails. my cousins all have steady jobs, perfect homes, and they casually discuss stock options like it’s a language I can’t quite grasp. I keep getting asked when I’m going to ‘get serious’—and every ‘serious’ question just adds another layer to my guilt, like I’m wearing the world's heaviest coat of disappointment—while secretly plotting the sequel to my unfulfilled ambitions.
literally saw my classmate's wedding video today. 50 lakhs on everything. meanwhile, i have fifty thousand saved up and no idea how i'll afford my rent next month. घर वाले समझते नहीं, they think i'm doing fine just because i can pretend at family dinners. honestly, sometimes i feel like i’m acting in a reality show where everyone is living a rich fantasy and i’m just the joke. #Inc #moneystruggles